R&R

There was

There was

There was

A Moment Split. A Moment Fractured.

The Halves Of That Moment Run In Separate Directions

One Half Runs Right, Solidified In Its Correctness

One Half Runs Left, Wrong, In Its Brokenness.

The variant degrees of separation are extreme

The body, made of flesh, leans.

Leans. 

(to be read: screams)

Wrong becomes left 

becomes straight 

becomes forward

becomes behind 

becomes past

becomes us

We have become that moment we have left.

Right?

there is

there is

there is

an annoying sensation of numbness in my right leg

these swimming lessons are becoming monotonous

and i have the distinct feeling that i’m not floating

i’m drowning

it’s becoming easier and easier to fall asleep in this pool

in this house shaped, me shaped, life shaped pool

there Will be

there Will be

there Will be

a.forced.smile

an.awkward.glance

a.knowing.deflection

will.power

try.to.remember

try.to.remember

try.to.remember

a.decisive.joy

an.indefinite.silence

an.insoluble.ache

a.decision

a.decision

a.decision

Happiness, shaped like something unfamiliar.

Safety, in a strangers embrace.

Touch, from skin of a different temperature.

And the ability to be okay with not knowing

(while, in fact, knowing what there is to not know)

  There was, there is, there Will be:

Rivers. And Roads.

Oh, and swimming. A lot of swimming.